Saturday, April 02, 2005
I'm about mental, I think.
It's been a busy week. I'm fried, emotionally and mentally. Parts of me want to stay in bed all day. That part won, yesterday. I didn't sleep much last night, and I'm still groggy now, but at least I'm out of bed and moving toward actually thinking about putting on clothes and going outside for a while. I'd thought about maybe going rollerblading or something, but it's cold, so I'll probably just settle for being outside and getting some coffee.
There's a lot to be said for that phrase "be still and know that I am God." Sometimes I just need to be quiet and let things wash over me. Right now, I'm thinking that brushing my teeth might not be a bad idea, either.
I parted ways with a girl this week. I don't want to hear from her again. We both need time to get better. I'm talking to another girl. Chances are good that I've messed that up already, and therefore will actually have to sit here and stew in my own juices for a while. It'll be good for me, probably, even though I won't relish it.
I'm at that point where I want to yell at the world "I fucking QUIT for right now!" and let everyone else play while I go sulk. Every time I do that, though, I realize how little impact I actually make on the people around me, as they go on playing without batting an eye, and I truly do get left behind. So, brush the teeth, put on clothes, and out we go.
There's a lot to be said for that phrase "be still and know that I am God." Sometimes I just need to be quiet and let things wash over me. Right now, I'm thinking that brushing my teeth might not be a bad idea, either.
I parted ways with a girl this week. I don't want to hear from her again. We both need time to get better. I'm talking to another girl. Chances are good that I've messed that up already, and therefore will actually have to sit here and stew in my own juices for a while. It'll be good for me, probably, even though I won't relish it.
I'm at that point where I want to yell at the world "I fucking QUIT for right now!" and let everyone else play while I go sulk. Every time I do that, though, I realize how little impact I actually make on the people around me, as they go on playing without batting an eye, and I truly do get left behind. So, brush the teeth, put on clothes, and out we go.
